I remember waking up surrounded and blinded by very bright lights. If I was old enough to know better, I would have thought it was the Divine white light and I was crossing over. I screamed with pain “Put her back under!” a male voice yelled. (Obviously, I did not die).
I remember waking up again, seeing and hearing my mom sobbing really loud coming towards me. My head was raised enough to see that I was wearing a huge diaper and I saw I was hooked up to wires? Tubes? Other hospital equipment?… Still feeling pain, but not as bad. I fell back to sleep.
I remember, my mother taking me to a curandera’s house. I was at Dona’s Vita’s house. Dona Vita was our witch doctor/curandera healer. Everyone went to her for many many different things. This lady knew even medical things… I remember I used to be afraid of her.
Mom said I was to stay with her to help her sweep her kitchen every day until Dona Vita could do it herself. OK…I remember mom would always have us volunteer to help others who had just had babies, surgeries, or the elderly. I felt this was one of those times. So, I would wake up in the early mornings, and by my cot was a broom. I would use it to hold me up to sweep her kitchen floor.
I could not understand why it was so hard for me to stand and I felt weak, but I kept trying to sweep Dona Vitas’ floor. When I felt it was too hard for me Dona Vita said I could finish it later.
She would feed me something to eat and after eating she would give me some tea and I would get very sleepy and slept for most of the day.
With time, I got better at sweeping and not falling asleep. Dona Vita asked me one day if I remembered how I hurt myself? “You know, I must have hit my head too because I cannot remember!”
Ties to this Trauma – I do remember, I was at a doctor’s office. He was checking me after I had my second child, asking, “How many children have you had?”
“Just two, I responded.”
“You have way too much scarring here, for just two children.”
This memory of the doctor’s office visit and his comment came to me instantly. Did this really happen? I heard a loud “YES!”
“Now, as you re-evaluate this experience, this acknowledgment, how will this past trauma in this life help you have more joy, happiness, and closure?’
Remember to speak to your Angels and guides, to your God, and Goddess, to give you the much-needed answers. I will give you a couple of minutes to speak to them. May the answers you request give you the peace you need to overcome this new information.
And now go back to relaxing, feeling safe again, calm and relaxed, and go to a happy place in which you can relax and receive the much-needed answers …pause…